Overanalyze.

Been listening alot to "Avril Lavgine - Keep Holding On", and also the cover of her song made by Glee. I don't know why but nowadays I realized that I've really needed to keep holding on in my life. Everything in my life seems to be falling apart, and if I don't keep holding onto it, I am pretty sure that it will fall apart afterward and I will not like a single bit of it. The reason why I am saying this will be mentioned in my Diary.

Anyway, I've always thought that I shouldn't be considering so many people as my "Best Friends" because I am that kind of person that will never wanted to face the truth of people telling me into their face that I am nothing but just a usual friend to them. But sometimes the feeling cannot be avoided because I do have a few friends whom, does gives me that feeling that they are the friend material that I will always try to stick more onto them compare to those that I didn't. Despite the fact that there are people who gives me the feeling that they are friend material, there are also friends that will gives me the feeling that they will later, betray or will do something that I am not satisfied with feeling, which I will always avoid them no matter what. Anyway, the worst thing is that when I got friends that one is a friend whom I thought to have Friend Material, while another gives me the feeling that I'll get Betrayed sooner or later. That's the reason why I've always avoided this two friends, because for me, I'll rather not to stay with a friend that gives me the betraying feeling, than keeping myself in the group.

Although I should've feel lonely and stuff because I've left them, I've found myself a group of new friends, okay, actually not new, I suddenly wanted to join them because I found out that they all gives me the feeling of Friend Material. And it's very true, because I myself consider both of them to be the only two Best Friends I had in APIIT/UCTI.